To The Bitter End, Part 3

fishingI also loved being out at the beach, which was literally right outside our door, before 6 am. That’s when the fish were always biting and the waves were gentler. I’d always been an outdoorsy person, but Cali seemed to bring that side of me out more than Sunset Valley ever had. Honestly, other than Ibbie there wasn’t much about Cali that I didn’t find new and breathtaking.

her carIn her carAnd with the great pay at the hospital, I’d soon made enough to ditch the taxi and bought my first car!

 

OddOf course, every town or bustling city has a few odd places you learn to keep your distance from..

weirdThe night club across from our house was more than a little eerie, and if the weird paint and creepy tiles weren’t enough to warn you off then the  people who gathered indoors sure were!

With so much to love about Cali-life, I never had a boring moment or a reason to feel homesick. I also never went hungry! Atilio LOVED to cook, and not just at work. He’d come home from work at night and head straight for the kitchen where he’d start to cook up dinner for us all. Sometimes I’d stand there-out of the way, mind you-and just watch him. He put so much into each dish he created. It was no wonder why I’d caught Akemi throwing him some pretty intense glances. If I hadn’t been so enamored with Zefania I’d probably have done the same..

 Xzavier

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One night after one of our walks at the beach I went out to the backyard where I’d started my own small garden-if you could call it that. I was pretty sure Zef had told me he was beat and was going to head on to bed, but not even five minutes later I heard the gate behind me creak open and turned to see Zef standing there in nothing but his boxers. I fought the impulse to cover my eyes and  giggle like a schoolgirl and forced myself to look at him directly.  “Zef, is anything wrong? I thought you were going to bed?”  “I was,” Zef started..”..but then Ibbie came in my room and..”   “WHAT?!? Why the heck did Ibbie come to your room?” Zef shrugged and continued. “I dunno, Day’Lee, she just did. She crawled under the covers with me and started to kiss me and then…” “She kissed you, Zefania? And did you kiss her back?”  “Well, sorta. I mean, what was I supposed to do? She was all over me, and…and I AM a man, Day.”  I nodded my head slowly. “I see. So what’d you come out here to tell me for if you were having so much fun just seconds ago with Ibbie? Were you interrupted? Is that what’s wrong?”  ‘Day, listen, you’re my best friend, and I need your advice.”In love

“I can’t explain it, Day, but something about Ibbie just excites me! It’s not just her scent or her gorgeous laugh..”-or her enormous boobs”, I muttered…-“but it’s something about the very essence of Ibbie! Once she left the room I just knew I had to come talk to you-Day, I think I’m falling in love!”

I gasped for air like a fish out of water. I felt my hands start to shake, so I clenched them into tight  fists and wrapped my arms around my waist. “So what exactly do you need my advice for? Sounds to me like you’ve got it all figured out.”  “Day, don’t be like that! I just..I just don’t know what to do. I mean, should I tell her how I feel about her? Should I see if she feels the same way? What if she’s just playing games, and I tell her how I feel for her and she laughs in my face?”    “Guess that’s a risk you’ll have to take.”  Zef stood there like he was waiting for me to say more, but I had nothing else to say. What the heck did he expect from me anyways? The anger inside started to boil over, and the next thing I knew I was shouting in Zef’s face.  “Zef, how could you? What about me?! What about…”  I lowered my voice to a whisper. “What about us?”

Zef took a step back with his left foot and then ran a hand through his hair while the other hand began the habit of pulling his ear lobe.

“What do you mean, Day’Lee? ”

“You think all those feelings between us will just go away?…Or maybe I’m the only one who ever felt that there was something more between us.”

“Adoria,” Zef said, (I knew whatever he was about to say was going to be pretty serious since he’d called me by my first name)”of course I feel something for you. I love you. But what did you want me to do? Just keep waiting for you to give me some sign that you felt the same?”  “I’m here, aren’t I? I came here with you, FOR you, didn’t I?”  Zef nodded his head thoughtfully as if he’d never seen it that way before and I was shocked that he hadn’t thought of it until now. “Yeah, you did..but Adoria, you never once came to me and told me how you felt-” “Well neither did you! All you ever said to me was you saw me as more than a friend, so how was I to know what you REALLY meant!!”- “and now we have a situation, don’t we? Look, I can’t stand here and lie and tell you that I don’t feel anything for Ibbie because I do. That doesn’t mean that I care for you any less, but if you feel anything for me at all then you’ll give me the space I need to figure this out..You’ll give me time. I can’t make any promises to you, Adoria. I can’t promise you that I’ll just get over Ibbie, or that if I pursue something more with her and it doesn’t work out I’ll come running to you to lick my wounds..I’m not sure what will happen between Ibbie and I, and I have no idea what’s in store for you and I either.”  I licked my lips and closed my eyes to gather my thoughts, but too many things were swirling around in my head and my eyes were beginning to fill with unshed tears. Zefania rested the palm of his hand against the curve of my cheek and kissed the tip of my nose. “I’m sorry,Day’Lee.” 

I didn’t open my eyes until I was sure Zef was gone. Then I sank to the ground and with my head between my knees I cried..I cried until my eyes were sore and my throat ached, and then I cried some more.

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2 Responses to “To The Bitter End, Part 3”

  1. Oh dear! Poor Adoria and… poor Zef! He was just being honest and had no idea of her feelings. Now he does, but it seems all too late.
    I really feel for them both.

  2. noooo. Zef is supposed to be with day! I totally feel for her. =(

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